"Sunday, December 03, 2006

is God a selfish God?? if we need things, we ask it from Him right?? He is most-powerful force and an all-knowing superior. but just this thought, i think everything has to be cajoled out from him?? we have to do our very best for Him to 'give' it to us?? even to the extent that we could not breathe and live, He still doesn't give it to us, to me?? when we are suffering so much, bruised, and hit rock bottom, He still does NOT extend help and give change to us?? i compare God to a life guard at a beach. He sees a man drowning and struggling for dear life. Aren't life guards suppose to save us. however, i think God is a life guard who just laughs at the man drowning. Instead of helping, he throws away the life buoy and turns away from the poor sight of the man drowning. evn if what your asking for is vital to your existence and sanity, He still doesn't give your answers?? why, oh why Lord? are you for real?? you exist?? to all my questions, nobody answers. who would then give me all i need the most?? i guess i am all alone in this world?? i don't know with others. is 'He' there and here?? i start to doubt if he's tru. I always hear that 'How do you know God if there's no pain?' How do you know real happiness if you don't know sadness?'. this extent of sufferings, pains, desolation,and hurts, is this how far your F 'trials' can go? is this your way of proving that you're real and that you're LOVE, that you're the light? is this your way? that with all of these, we must always cry out to you for help, for aid?? what if we've shed the last tear, and yet the pain,loneliness, tribulation is still there?? why do you NOT give a hand?? why?

Friday, November 24, 2006

I have lost all the reasons to LIVE, and i found all the reasons to quit."

one of our dearest ogilvian has posted this. I feel the grief with every bit of words puzzled to form an intriuging yet disturbing entry.

bout that thing with God... just look around. There's someone who's life is much miserable than yours. He has not forsaken you, but , with his infinite power of wisdom, decides to wait for the right time, for the perfect time. Aside from that, He also makes sure you deserve what you ask. :)

you know who you are and i know you are far more better than what you are now.